Thursday, June 30, 2005
finaly over ...
brain dead ...
guess it sarks ..
nv felt so demorlised b4 ... hha ..
jc sarks ..
and next year new sysllabus sarks ...
my god ... i'm dyin ...
more to do .. hiaz ..
pw ...
chatting ...
rackin up the past ...
11:37 PM
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
and to sae studyin 5 chapts 4 chem is easy ....
IT IS FUCKED
all the shit detailed tings came out ...
my god ..was like tinkin chem would be a pass ..
den .. those fuked up taechers set-ed a paper tt was so coOl ...
now ...itS F
damm fuckin f again ... for gp now for chem ... sigh ...
have NO more motivation to study fer maths le ..
cuz its gonna be another F again ...
my brain is fried .. toaster ..
whu sae i nv study ...
i muGED like mad ..
still the result was obvious ..
any1 come tell mi i nv study ... haha ..
tink they'll get kped my mi ..
F2 ... 2 more to go b4 f4 comes here and sing mi liu xing yu ...
hope it will stop at f2 ...
but the future looks bleak ....
1:44 PM
Monday, June 27, 2005
in our modern society, is it better to be an only child ....
to hell wif tis que ...
the best of the fucked up que i can find ...
no crimes .. edu or media ...
chem is next .... and another hiaz ..
spdf? ... combusion analysis ?? .... doTs ....
mass spec ... moles ... dm3 ... my god ..
back to chem .. muggin muggin mugin ..
7:45 PM
Sunday, June 26, 2005
ohh yeah ...
retainee club ...
hell will i not join tt ...
tryin every possible way to avoid being retained ..
well if i do .. i'd go to poly ..
no way am i gg 2 stay at yj or g to MI ...
hopin to pass maths and chem ...
phy i dunno .. see how lor ... hvaen quite started ... hiaz ..
feelin the pressure within ...
been tinkin lately ..
tink i'd stop be so crude .. usin all those stupid vulguarties ...
however fuck will still be on my list ...
international recognised word rite ? .. haha ...
kae .. it shall be den ...
exams is a day away ..
and hell i hope it wun be fuckin hard ...
lucks every1 4 the exams ...
7:29 PM
Saturday, June 25, 2005
last day of holidays .. sigh ..
exams next ... unCOol ...
seriously ... i will fail ..
no joke ... hiaz ...
tinkin bout everyting tt happened durind past few weeks ..
many wrong decisions ..
many enjoyable moments ...
whole day slackin wif dem ...
guess after tis its gdbye ...
4 mths to go ...
i'll start workin hard ...
i'll finally achieve wad i'm suppose to be ...
although will start laggin behind ... i hope it pay off ..
so hope u guys wun blame mi ...
thx for all the memorable times ...
tantnning .. gossipin .. studyin .. pool bowl .. kuay chap .. prata ...
wad i cant ?.. hhaa .. hate being alone ...
but sometimes dere need to be sacrifices ..
now .. i just wish to fly off to some deserted island ..
alone .. wif all my stuff ... and mugg dere ...
do i look 12 ?? ..
tt woman at sizzler tink so .. omg ..
at least i lOOk young .. loL ..
signning off ... gd byee ...
1:02 AM
Thursday, June 23, 2005
Another head hangs lowly
Child is slowly taken
And the violence caused such silence
Who are we mistaken
But you see it's not me,
It's not my family
In your head
In your head
They are fighting
With their tanks and their bombs
And their bombs and their guns
In your head
In your head
They are crying
Another mother's breakin'
Heart is taking over
When the violence causes silence
We must be mistaken
It's the same old theme since nineteen-sixteen
In your head
In your head
They're still fighting
With their tanks and their bombs
And their bombs and their guns
In your head
In your head
They are dying
11:21 PM
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
cool ...
finally some acheivements ...
i sTudied and for once someting went in ...
i hope 2ml will be the same ..
dun have time le ...
dreams are gg to be fufilled ...
tings will be done ...
everyting will be fine ....
trust yrself ...
11:59 PM
sark man .. detroit win ...
tyCO .. haha ...
next ... to study .... siAN ..
12:05 PM
sighh ... now 4 my midyears ... haha ...
how fun can it be ....
the dudley boys would come and give mi a 3D ...
"bANg"! ... and i would be out cold ...
10:12 AM
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
kuay chap .......
9:01 PM
Monday, June 20, 2005
guess wad ....
the ting i hate doin now is slpin ...
y? .. cuz my mouth will dry up ..
my uclers will den crack and bleed ..
hrs ltr i will feel intenese pain ...
wTF man .. i hAte tis life ....
tried to study ...
but nothin went in ... haha ..
4 more days left ..
8:50 PM
i wan be the shaun 3 years ago ...
nOW sucks ...
nothin will ever remain unchanged ....
lOoks like its destiny .... hhaa ...
had a great weekend ...
1 more week 2 go ...
everyting jUSt came crashin down on mi ...
and to all ppl out dere ...
dun gossip so much lar kae ...
ltr u all be old wrinkled aunties and uncles den i dunno le ..
so take carre everybOdy ....
hOpe yr life wun be as bad as mine .. haha ....
SA won 2day .. so happIE ...
thrash detriot next game okayy .... jIA yoU ...
1:12 PM
Sunday, June 19, 2005
cb ernest elsa mh and des came ...
slacked around the whole nite ...
many %^&* and @#$%^ words came out ...
played and studied ...
however my uclers keep givin mi problems ... argghh ..
just cant slp at nite ...
some1 just cut my mouth away ..
2 weeks has been so fast ... haha ..
wad i promised myself 2 do when jia and rae went sri lanka i nv realli did ..
tt is -- study ....
1 more week 2 go and i noe nuts ..
they're now at airport waitin fer their arrival and i'm stoning here ...
dun realli feel well ... so didnt go .. haha ..
fallin sick soon...
my god ... and another few days lost to not studyin ...
sure gonna fail my exams ...
sigh ... wadever can i do ?? ...
2:54 PM
Thursday, June 16, 2005
damm frustrated .. arghhh ...
ulcers and the braces are killin ....
tons and tons to study ...
my god .. i'm realli gonna fail man ..
and badly ..
no1 can save mi .. its too late le ...
just so irrated ....
running into fianacial diffculties ... siGhh ....
11:16 PM
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
yeah ... sometimes i wonder ...
I open my eyes
I try to see but I’m blinded by the white light
I can’t remember how
I can’t remember why
I’m lying here tonight
And I can’t stand the pain
And I can’t make it go away
No I can’t stand the pain
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
Everybody’s screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I’m slipping off the edge
I’m hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again
So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can’t explain what happened
And I can’t erase the things that I’ve done
No I can’t
12:29 PM
Monday, June 13, 2005
finally started studyin again ...
although a few hrs but was okAy ...
we were freezing in dere ... haha ..
great studyin dere ...
at least leant quite a no. of tings ...
10:36 PM
studyin ...
the 1 ting tts so hard to do ... sigh ..
i do not wan to promise myself ...
but i'll try to study 2day ....
2 more weeks ...
wow .. tts fast ....
frm burying the hachet to all the fun ...
its over ...
10:37 AM
Saturday, June 11, 2005
played bball 2day ...
was ia bore i guess ...
pool was probably the same ...
nothin seems to excite mi le ...
had been tinkin the past few days ...
after prata ... many tings came swirling back ...
tink i'm no diff frm him ...
well i guess ... i have change ... haha ...
exams are comin ...
i'm still failing ...
tink i'm gonna get grounded soon ... hiaz ...
i hope i do ...
onli if i found u den will i succeed ...
now .. everytings a mystery to mi ...
doubtin everyting i do ...
6:06 PM
Friday, June 10, 2005
the braces are killin mi ... haha ...
gonna meet dem for bball in 12 hrs .. haha .. cant wait ..
gt many tings to sae ..
but cant remember now ... still dam shagg ...
just wanna let all of u noe i'm grateful and thankful to noe all of u
11:28 PM
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
arghh .. fuck fuk fuk ...
fuck the whole world man .....
too fuck wif pw .....
my head is throbing ....
i give up ... just fuck the hell off here ...
throw in the towel ....
i place the white flag above mi ......
just stop tis fuckin world around mi ....
y do all my appoinment clash wif my pw meeting ...
now my teacher angry ... my frens tink i just pOn ...
fuck lar .. fuck ... no1 understands mi ....
argHHHHhhhHHhh ......
4:54 PM
damm shagg now lar .. haha ...
dun tink gg sch le ...
onli 5 of us in a terrace chalet ... ahha .. wth ...
lonely ? ... nah ...
music winning ps and chatting kept us awake ...
it has been a long time man ....
saw an idiot gay on the bus just now lar ...
duno have a crush on whu ...
keepin smiling at us .... eeee .... yuckS ...
maybe we shld book hougang chalet for him ....
and my sis damm pro lar ...
when i reach home .. gate and door wasnt lock lar ..
and she was out ... hahaa ....
so ppl .. this proves tt sg is realli safe !! ....
u all can come try yr luck and steal tings frm my hse ...
goodbye .... slp and bowlin is next ...
12:24 PM
Sunday, June 05, 2005
am i destined to be reatained ?? ...
even my pw is not workin out well ...
wanna cry le lar ....
tears tt i cry ...
10:20 PM
prata at prata hse ...
prata at casurina ...
ice cream at tp ... wahhaha ...
FEI SI LE ....
next time ...
prata at clemeiti ...
prata and pasar panjang ....
wee ...
3:18 PM
Saturday, June 04, 2005
another day gone ... just like tt ..
wasted another day ....
studyin playin and stoning ...
went pool again wif boon and hong ...
i wan to lead a meaningful life ...
i wan to travel the world .. and not study ...
i need $$ .. lots of dem ...
y are ppl like tt ?? ...
gossips and speculation ....
ppl see onli of side of the event ... and not e whole pic ...
they are deadly ... costly and harmful ...
cauin downfall to ppl ... hatred ... jealousy ...
wars are started bcos of tis ...
ppl die ...
lives become miserable ....
is dere no end to such tings ?? ... i guess not ...
sometimes .. it is temptin not to be on the neutral side ...
sometimes by takin side makes it more fun ...
well ... i guess i cant realli run be life well ...
many tings i realli regret ...
nothin can be changed ...
i just hvae to bear the consequences ...
the heavy burden is killin mi ...
piles and piles of crap on my table waiting to be touched ...
i just enjoy slacking .... i dunno y ...
cant seem to start over again ...
pls pick mi up ... fix mi ... and i'll soar into the sky ...
10:40 PM
Friday, June 03, 2005
yup ... was at chem lec and my mind drifted off AGAIN...
drifted far far away ...
lookin back at the past months ...
i wondered ... wad have i done ....
i still dunno a whole load of rubbish .. and my exams are in 3 weeks ..
play play and play ... it was just like in the first 3 mths ...
although gt study but i'm still far frm it ...
wadevr i promise myself seems not to be ...
but still i miss the 1s 3 mths ... sighh ...
playing murderer .. daidi ... bball ... etc ...
frens comin crash our sch ...
mh and shing transferin herr ..
diaoing the librian ...
comin up wif excueses to skip sch and much more...
the days are gonE now ....
still cant face up to reality ...
trappin myself in the past ...
guess it wun work anymore ...
now the more i should change ...
if any1 wanna help can just do it ...
to ... jia ... rae and jie hao ....
hope u enjoy yrselves in sri lanka ... hahs ...
builing hses and stuf ...
take care of yrselves kkz ...
will miss u guys lots ...
9:35 PM
Thursday, June 02, 2005
haha .. wad a bday ...
slept ...
watch nba ..
played winning ...
ate prata ...
listened to mh sing his oldies ...
thx to every1 ... speciallt mel and mh .. haha ...
if not i would hvae been bored to tears ...
10:05 PM
sian ... 17 le ... haha ...
stupid no i tink ... bad year ....
hope suns will win spurs ... gg on now ..
suns losin sia ... damm sian ...
thx everyone ... hehe .....
11:09 AM